Im not broken just bent & I will learn to love again...

ahhh my tile pretty much explains my life to a T right now.. and honestly make me so happy!! I'm so ready to love again I feel like my life is going in the right direction and everything seems to be falling into place. Its amazing when you are happy how everyone around you is happy and positive things start to happen. I recently started to see someone who I am absolutely crushing on and it makes me happy <3 Everything that lacked in my last relationship has all of a sudden come to life in this one... I knew that if someone really wanted to show someone they cared they would and he defiantly does.
I have my own insecurities that I am trying to get through, they have made me question things and I know that its just from the times that I have been hurt. I have a lot of love to give and sometimes I jump 100% in to quick and end up being broken harded. I am learning that patience is a key :) I have a lot going on in life right now and I need to focus on the most important one first and that is my daughter! I want Aijla to be happy and when I am happy it makes our world together unbreakable.
Its been a bit of a struggle trying to date work a full time job & a part time job be a mommy and get ready for out big move and do the very best to work out daily and maintain a healthy lifestyle like I love. Its been a hand full but I wouldn't change much right now.. I am trying to not work so many days at my second job the cash is just so hard to pass up!. I wish there was more time for me to hangout with my main man ! ha ha (his name is not going on my blog.. yet) I want things to work out and they have been really amazing I again question things but I am working through them to see if its something that will fit and work with what I want and need as we are still learning about each other. We have a blast together and try and be with each other as much as we can. We do have like opposite schedules so that's not fun but we both try and make a good effort to see one another. Its been a  little over month and swear it feels like a year! haha he has been asking me out since the summer but wasn't available so things just feel into place pretty quick and i was very happy about it. He makes me smile day in and day out :) I need to learn to be patience with this one and know that the beginning stage of a relationship there is a lot to learn about one another it can make it or break it!
 so cheers to a freaking new year & me dating ha ha!!!

Awesome Parents

Most of you know my Awesome Parents :) 

 I seriously have the most amazing parents a child could ask for. As I sit back in bliss today and think about how lucky I am it just makes me smile... :) I dont think that my mom raising me and my younger brother could of done a better job, being a single mom working full time & long hours just to make sure we had everything we needed. It really shows how strong of a women she is. I know it wasnt easy on her but she did it exactly right. My brother Jorden and myself have grown into quite the adults (for the most part ha ha Jorden is better then me) and we do owe so much to her. My real dad moved to Florida when we were both really young and we only saw him a few times a year so we did end up growing apart and as we got older our schedules got buiser. We still keep in touch around holidays and now that we have children its great to stay in contact even more!
My mom got remarried to the most amazing guy ever he has been in our life for like 15 years(or more lost count) his name is Robert he has been so great to me and my brother he made most of our life possible growing up, teaching us things being there for my mom when raising us wasnt so easy. Robert has  honeslty given me the life I always wanted I know it wasnt easy for him being the "step dad" and there are times we both wanted to kill eachother but all I can do is thank him for all he has done :) My parents still continue to give and give for me and my brother and its such a blessing to have such great role models. I try and live each day by being the best mother I can be for my daughter and know that being a single mom has its ups... many of them actually. I cant wait for the day that I get to experience what my mother did with my step dad and know that someone will be in my life to help me not do it alone! It makes me excited to even think about :) I cant wait to grow my family and keep teaching Aijla about life and living each memory and moment to the fullest!


Mom & Me

 

New Me.New Year

Guess who's back?! yeah I know its only been over a year however I told myself that this year I would do better with my blogging fingers :)

Where do I even begin... my life has changed so much the past year as to why I started a new Blog.. out with the past and on to the New!!

I have never been happier in my life then I have been the past few months, it took me a really long time to figure out to just be me and stop living life for someone else.

Life now...

Aijla & I are currently still at my moms and its so nice. So rewarding having such a strong supportive family that does so much for you and only wants to see you succeed.. but on that note we are moving out soon :) I have decided that I'm almost 27 and its time I be a big girl again! I am much stronger this time around & want aijla to see this and couldn't be happier to get back into my condo in Draper. 3 More weeks !!! eeekkk I am so excited.

Work has been amazing for the most part has it ups / downs. I am still with Rk Properties I recently got promoted in Sept 2012 and was beyond excited about this I have worked really hard to have my own property. We are currently going through a potential sell to another company and I am trying to stay optimistic about still having a job. Hoping they will want to keep the same staff! So fingers crossed ... PLEASE!

Aijla... ahhh where do I even begin about this bundle of Joy! ;) seriously this little girl completes my life she has been such a blessing to me and my family. She is just so smart and blows me away everyday I cant even believe I will have a 3 year old in 3 months! Her smile is contagious and I just love her blonde curly locks! She is perfect in my eyes even with attitude :)

Life is good :)

I feel so lucky!!!